Hi,
I am seeking some help , when i meditate and say the words good freemason I start to receive images of a good freemason, I also have images of a man standing in the centre of a room with a child either side of that man and he appears to be walking away with these children unless I say something? For an example I say right and one child would move to the right or I would do 3 right angles and they would move to the right, or some out side source would be making the man and children move without me saying or moving .. which would lead to unwanted disgusting imagery, so I have so far had a 2 year battle to try and make sure that the images are normal... Is there an easy way to close me off or so that I do not receive unwanted images...
Also when I am out and about and talk to people in a normal in convosation... sometimes if I say " yeah" to answare a normal question I get a stinging sensation on my skin.. and other times I would say no to answare a normal question I would receive the same stinging sensation?
However I did recive a blue cube or blue box initiation "no" "me' where I said "no" and Simone else said "me" about 2 years however I was told by the wire from my neighbours? not to do the 3 right angles that I saw after flying to orions belt, or when talking to people in normal convosations?
I also did reviced an unwanted red/black cube initiation, that told me to be quite about what I saw, which was not my choice? I might add which sounded like my neighbours... I also saw a geometric shape that changed in real time to another strange geometric shape in space, that I had never seen before or since?
I also had anwated initiation where I viewed a man rasing his left hand as if to say hi, or stop? This was in black and white imagery?
After the left hand initiation I also saw a man show me a a right arm big right angle? Rasing his right arm to shoulder height, stretched out pointing to the right hand side.. so to speak? This initiation was in full colour?.. so to speak
I can't quite remember that if the blue cube was the first or third initiation regarding gestures?
Have i been made or am I a freemason? or Moral mason? and should I use these gestures in the real world?
Kind regards
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christ light
moral light
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